Hello everyone! I was away last week and I missed World Mental Day. However, I’ve wanted to post this for a while and just to empathise we can talk about mental health anytime!
At the end of last year, my grandma passed away. I am only getting used to saying that now without crying and breaking down. I had never lost anybody close to me before and I was distraught, to say the least. I have never experienced such pain and I was completely broken. My workplace wasn’t very supportive, and I was back into work about 4 days after it happened. I just didn’t know what to do and I thought being at work would help. I completely misled myself in thinking what I was doing was right for me, and I never gave myself time to heal.
For the majority of the year, I’ve been crying a lot and having random breakdowns alone. The worst part about this was I wasn’t telling anybody. I didn’t tell my loved ones how much I was struggling and hurting. I didn’t feel completely happy like I used too. I would still have happy moments, but that feeling would only last those moments.
In August, I realised what I was doing to myself. I finally opened up to my fiancé, my family and friends that I was struggling with this. It was such a relief and a weight of my shoulders they finally knew. Being able to talk to my loved ones about this has helped me heal so much!
I had never been so unhappy for a long time before. Whenever I’m upset, I can pick myself back up within a day. It’s true when they say mental health illnesses are silent illnesses. Anybody can be affected by mental health, and this is why I believe we should treat everybody with kindness in our hearts.
If you are going through something like this yourself, please, I urge you to talk to someone about it. If you can’t talk to your loved ones, talk to a health care professional such as a doctor/GP. I struggled the hardest with regrets to do with my lovely grandma, but now I regret not seeing my GP. Even though I couldn’t speak to my family, speaking to a GP may have helped me.
I am happy to have come out of the other end and share my story. I still find it hard sometimes, but I know I have people who I can go when this happens.
We are all struggling with our own demons and we should be nice to each other every day!
Hope you all have a lovely weekend, see you in my next post!